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Saturday, September 04, 2010 @ 4:16 AM
i cried till morning.
& i couldnt stand the pain anymore :(
so i finally smsed him.
i dun get it why. he wont leave till 30.
i dun get it why he wont marry.
lotsa thing i dun get it.
& lastly, u said to me..
one day you will understand. (maybe the one day is when i gave up right?)
i duno how much i cried but eyes were pain :(
like bleeding soon-.- i didnt had this feeling before..
finally i slept.
& 2hrs ltr, i received ur call. thats how happy i was.
i smsed you. but u didnt reply.
i had real puffy eyes:(
i didnt know what to do.
cause i had a dinner with my relatives.
i had placed ice on my eyes. reduce my eyes from swell.
IT WORKS.
but i had to endure the coldness.
had to endure the ice water flowing into my eyes while it melts.
i prepared myself. put thick makeup.
put thick liners. hoping that no one discover that my eyes were swollen
dead eyes-.-
sat bus to amk ave3.
i tried hard not to think. i failed. i teared.
a restaurant called mebllen seafood.
queue was super long
& i couldnt stand the pain anymore :(
so i finally smsed him.
i dun get it why. he wont leave till 30.
i dun get it why he wont marry.
lotsa thing i dun get it.
& lastly, u said to me..
one day you will understand. (maybe the one day is when i gave up right?)
i duno how much i cried but eyes were pain :(
like bleeding soon-.- i didnt had this feeling before..
finally i slept.
& 2hrs ltr, i received ur call. thats how happy i was.
i smsed you. but u didnt reply.
i had real puffy eyes:(
i didnt know what to do.
cause i had a dinner with my relatives.
i had placed ice on my eyes. reduce my eyes from swell.
IT WORKS.
but i had to endure the coldness.
had to endure the ice water flowing into my eyes while it melts.
i prepared myself. put thick makeup.
put thick liners. hoping that no one discover that my eyes were swollen
dead eyes-.-
sat bus to amk ave3.
i tried hard not to think. i failed. i teared.
a restaurant called mebllen seafood.
queue was super long
had to even order the food outside & they will prepare ur table. =.=
famous for crabs.there. alot of signatures from the actors.
l only get to take this photo-.-cause everyone was like turning the 'revolving plate' in the middle-.-
i finally know why ppl out of love commit suicide.
they couldnt take that huge impact. the pain of losing someone that precious.
i am glad that i survived today.
i still couldnt believed what happen ytd.
seems like things had been there for so long.
but it is just YESTERDAY.
i feel so pain.
how will my tml be like :(
i still kept to my faith.
believing that its temporary!
cause if i tell myself its forever.
who knows wad will happen to me. -.-
maybe there isnt hope.
cause there are guys,
whu can say. see. temporary also can, maybe make it forgood?
or... their temporary would be long.. long... long.. long.. for good.
BUT, I STILL WANT TO BELIEVE IN TEMPORARY.
weeleng told me.
loving someone includes loving when they change.
its like. i really dun understand why.. the person would still be the same wad.
the person loves u will change back to himself.
& i love tad 'himself'
rather den changing way off to the good side.
somehow or rather,
i feel afraid to sms u, msn u, msg u.
so afraid that i might piss you off.
like the temporary -> forever.
cause of one small action i did.
scared you ignoreme.
like a fking leech; fking pest :(
i dun dare to say anything, but to my online diary, blogger.com.
I REALLY WANT TO MSG YOU TO TELL YOU
I AM MISSING YOU, MISSING YOU BADLY.
they couldnt take that huge impact. the pain of losing someone that precious.
i am glad that i survived today.
i still couldnt believed what happen ytd.
seems like things had been there for so long.
but it is just YESTERDAY.
i feel so pain.
how will my tml be like :(
i still kept to my faith.
believing that its temporary!
cause if i tell myself its forever.
who knows wad will happen to me. -.-
maybe there isnt hope.
cause there are guys,
whu can say. see. temporary also can, maybe make it forgood?
or... their temporary would be long.. long... long.. long.. for good.
BUT, I STILL WANT TO BELIEVE IN TEMPORARY.
weeleng told me.
loving someone includes loving when they change.
its like. i really dun understand why.. the person would still be the same wad.
the person loves u will change back to himself.
& i love tad 'himself'
rather den changing way off to the good side.
somehow or rather,
i feel afraid to sms u, msn u, msg u.
so afraid that i might piss you off.
like the temporary -> forever.
cause of one small action i did.
scared you ignoreme.
like a fking leech; fking pest :(
i dun dare to say anything, but to my online diary, blogger.com.
I REALLY WANT TO MSG YOU TO TELL YOU
I AM MISSING YOU, MISSING YOU BADLY.
