Sunday, September 05, 2010 @ 10:43 PM
Its the 2nd day after my bday.
my life seems so sucky.
didnt noe what to do.
didnt noe how to continued on.
i scream in my heart and nobody knows.
u're right.
u became a flirt.
adding lotsa girls.
& i love a flirt. -.-
i didnt meant to disrupt ur life.
i think, i made u struggle all the time.
all my nonsense.
trying hard.
trying hard to control myself, not to sms u.
like what kim has said.
to convince myself that we're giving each other holiday.
& i kept sentence myself death when the other party haven said so.
i think i can only convince myself with that even though results are negative.
in life, its so contradicting.
there's a phrase. "Be optimistic"
but! there's also a phrase. "Be prepared for the worst"
i duno which to take. FML&LOL
the future lies in ur hands.
if you think that way, it would only end up that way.
why does ppl change from time to time.
you can change to a better you.
& i hope u did.
maybe wadeva u did is for a reason.
but i changed for a reason too.
but why the old me better?
i think a became slightly better. isnt it?
cant you?
nvm. you are right. i couldnt understand u.
i failed badly.
one day i would understand.
one day, when i noe the reason why.
it means that, i agree with you that it should be for good right?
thats wad i interpreted.
maybe i misinterpreted it as everyone has a different views on things.
i wished to stand by you.
i wished to open your locked heart.
i wished that you could pour things to me.
i wished i could helped you.
Its a difficult for us now.
cause you arent helping yourself while you're nodding
abt wad people suggested to you.
things may looked hard, but there is always a solution.
so be happy and smile.
